It's amazing!

It's amazing. It's amazing how many thinkers and philosophers believe that the proof of our own existence is the fact that we THINK.

On careful consideration, thinking is the root of many of our so-called problem. We think, we rationalize and reason with ourselves about why things happen, what things mean, how should things be, only to feel worse than before.

You think in lit, u rationalize in KI. Things are supposed to be this way because of this, things are like that cos of that problem. Is it possible to actually comprehend everything with regards to the world around us? I dont think so. uggh. i used the word 'think' again.

Sophistication is what matters in lit and KI, but does it really matter for us in the world? Critical Thinking: breaking down arguments - what for? If you dont accept that things are 'just like that', are you trying to understand the ways of God? It's definitely impossible to fully KNOW what God has in plan for u. so what for try to do so?

Wonder when's life gonna be alright.

i really wonder.

Perfect Information

Random picture to start e post: that's life before JC haha. tt's a young Darryl there who's unaware of what LIFE really is. Now, i can say i've learnt alot in these 2 yrs.

Perfect info. This is the ideal 'thing' in economics. Something which is said to be non-existent in the real world. Why is that so? Sometimes I really wonder whether it's possible to avoid misunderstanding and miscommunication. Not that it happened to me recently, but wouldn't it be nice if someone truly knows how you feel? W/o long-winded explanation, it'll be cool if someone can just understand what you mean and what you want.

I guess that's something quite unachievable in the real world. Of course, "Cast all your cares on him, for he cares for you" is a promise from God which i hold on to dearly. He's someone who'll really satisfy anyone cos of the God-shaped hole in our lives. ha.

The missing piece of jigsaw can never be filled by another random piece because it is meant to be that way - just as how pple try to fill their lives with friends, love, parties, acheivements...etc, but in the end, it boils down to nothing. When life is reduced to its simplest terms, you will realise how insignificant you are. what really matters is the fact that you live your life according to the glory of God.

A non-christian or a skeptic might then think I'm bullshitting. So i guess for them, it's all abt knowing who you really are, just as how im trying to do so, cos God wants us to be aware of ourselves and not use blind faith to justify everything tht happens. We have to forge out a life on our own, that's wad our brains are for. LOL.

Who am I? Sometimes i wonder too. I really know what I wanna do with my whole life, but im unsure of what really matters to me at the very present moment. It puzzles me how it's impossible to really live life to the fullest because of externalities which are beyond our control, just as Greek characters in theatre are always subjected to forces beyond their control.

Im confused. hmm.

DA

Embrace Life

Sometimes I really wonder how and why things happen. Occasionally, it seems as though God isn't around at all although i've always been reminded, thru pple or even the holy spirit himself, that through it all, God is in control and he loves us. Looking back at my previous post, i realised what a fool i've been by ignoring God's words to me, going one big round ranting to myself and pple until I come back to sq 1, where i still have to heed the very words God gave me.

It's sometimes very amusing how wrong decisions made can cause you to detour, cause you pain and tears, just as how the israelites had to wonder around the wilderness for 40 years due to disobedience. Im sorry Lord for my disobedience. yup.

It has been a huge roller-coaster ride this year, with stuff in ODAC: big big projects etc, stuff in TSD: Prelims, A levels, groups, individual work etc, stuff in church..., and stuff elsewhere. Haha. I dont know whether I've grown, but I think i have. I'm not sure.

I'm not sure but I think i've this big problem with my pride. It's probably something that many face. It's the gravest of the 7 deadly sins as mentioned in the bible, probably because Lucifer (Satan) himself fell because of pride. He wanted to be like God. For me, I wanted to be the best in alot of things. I feel that I've not really lived my life for God and God alone.. I'm sorry God.

This is my new fav gospel song in church:

"This is my desire, to honour you.
Lord with all my heart, I worship you.
All I have within me, I give you praise.
All that I adore, is in you.

Lord I give you my heart,
I give you my soul,
I live for YOU alone.
Every breath that I take,
every moment I'm awake,
Lord have your way in me:)"


I really think humility is a virtue. The notion about taking "PRIDE" in your work is WRONG! You should take responsibility in your work but not PRIDE. At least that's what I think. I want pure humility, less of yourself darryl, more of others.

DA

No.

Heavy feet, sinking lungs, grieving heart.
Condescending eyes, intense stares.
Is it fate or is it Him?
Is it hate or is it love?

Soft or hard?
Heavy or light?
I hate these dichotomies.
Is paranoia's grip on it?

Empty words don't work on me.
Stop encouraging me.

-Da