Measuring perfection

We all fall short of the glory of God because of sin. Many a time, we compare because we think others are better than us or vice versa but we fail to realise how insignificant our differences are as compared to the perfection of God the father. The presence of a concept like infinity in mathematics has already resulted in the impossibility of using inequalities as and when we want - this is indeed the situation in life. We think of the faults and failures done to us but we do not realise how God the father has forgiven us of all sins and that we should follow suit so as to exemplify God's perfect love. Lord, help me to forgive - I know by forgiving, I'm releasing everything to you so that you will take control of everything. :)

If we measure any failures done toward us against perfection, they're so so insignificant.. sometimes i ask if im just consoling myself, rationalising without proper premises. i really dont know. perhaps i'll know soon.

State of dilemma

Dilemma, confusion.
I've never realised how the awareness of one's goals and identity truely matters.
This tool of prevention - bible.
The tool of protection - love.

It feels like I'm grasping at straws.
Jazz, syncopation - off beat yet in time.
Life - likened to a symphony of varied motifs.
Ku mau cinta Yesus Selamanya.

Jesus.

Lord, there's really alot of things I wanna do, I wanna say, I wanna make happen. But sometimes I wonder why u've planned my life in sucha way that it seems to be bringing me somewhere else. I know where it's going but I dont know for sure. The immense weight of the shakable elements of the earth seems too much to take.

I cannot take no for an answer.
I misuse my ability to conquer.
Everything seems to be faster.
I feel as if I'm matyred.

She seems to be punctuating my sentences.
He seems to be fabricating pretences.
I cannot work with my hands tied behind.
It somehow doesn't pay to be kind.

Liken myself to a bird.
A bird entrapped within. Oh Lord!
I know I have to rejoice,
a command rather than a choice.

Therefore in all times esp ones like these,
when confusion and deception starts to maime,
You, I will still choose to please,
Lord, Blessed be your name.

DA